In your life, you are going to experience moments of absolute loss of control and loss of humanity. When this happens, you have to remind yourself that it is not your fault. Something happened to you that is out of your control, and you have to set away the blame on yourself. The world can be a cruel place, and I do not think it is ever going to change anytime soon. Remember that you have people who love you and support you no matter what, and they are always going to be by your side throughout these hardships. I know you feel like someone took something so sacred away from you, and that fire that once burned your soul has been blown out, and there is no way of getting back right now. You have the capability to try and fight for your life through this hardship, but it is also okay if you do not want to right now. You are allowed to be sad, you have to allow yourself to feel everything that you are feeling. No matter what happens, and no matter what the end r...
I hope that you find comfort and peace to keep living your life. We are all in this together.