Stuck in September

As I sit here on this warm, September day, I cannot help but think of what happened on this very day, seven years ago. The heartache that filled my entire body, leading only to emptiness. My world had shattered. My life was to never be the same again. I did not know how to move on or how to let go. I only wanted to sleep. I did not want to grasp the very idea that of everything that had just occurred. I could not accept it. I sat there feeling useless. What was I, a twelve year old girl, supposed to do? I sat there, looking out the window, trying to understand what was going on in that house. I wanted to scream, but all I felt was oblivion. The sun began to hide behind the clouds, and the world had suddenly become darker...

much darker.

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