The Necessities of Life

  I don’t know why things happen in life. Sometimes, it could be to teach a lesson. Other times, it could be that the world sucks. All I know is that we are born onto this planet, starting at point A, and somehow we make it to the finish line to point Z. We think it’s a straight line ahead, but it’s quite the opposite. Ups, downs, curves, it all just happens unexpectedly. We cannot explain twists and turns to ourselves because we think we know what we’re doing, but it often goes much differently.  So here I am, opening up to all of you, expressing how all over the place my life has been. It’s been good, and it’s been bad, and there is no in-between. The good days were perfect, and the bad days were awful, leaving me just a broken shell of a woman trying to find her way back to the light.  My mental health suffers severely. I find myself taking the time to please others more than I have time to take care of myself. I am worried people will be angry with me because I ...

We live in a world of pretentious hopes and dreams that are either fulfilled or destroyed. The very well-being that life might not go on is a travesty, and still, a harsh reality that we don't know what is in store for us. How much heartache is too much? How much laughter is not enough? How do we go on to enlighten ourselves past destruction that only we can attain? We don't know. The world can be vastly overrated beyond measures at a given time. We are born into this world, and then we wait for death. While we wait, we live this life and make the most of our time. Instead of waiting for death to take us, we occupy our time so that one day we can look back without regret. 

 There tend to be a lot of unfortunate events that happen to people at the wrong time. There is a lot to be said about those who have unfortunate situations happen to them, and most of the time, they are innocent people who never deserved it in the first place. We lose people every day, but there comes the point where things can mislead us into the depths of the unknown. Nothing in life is ever fair. If it was, we would all be wearing diamonds right now, but we aren't.  The many people that came before us had to work towards something to achieve something more significant. They had to work tirelessly because they could not afford to live comfortably. They experienced highs and lows, but they always came out on top after they suffered those low points in their life.  Even the kindest souls on earth struggle because that is what we should do. We have to face these lows because we have to learn how to accept life for how it really is. We have to learn to make our own decisio...

  CONTENT WARNING: CONTAINS SENSITIVE CONTENT AND MAY BE TRIGGERING FOR SOME READERS.  Are you a victim of sexual assault? If yes, I am deeply sorry for all of the heartache, sleepless nights, triggers, and healing you have had to endure. Everyone copes with it much differently, and I am so sorry that you had to go through that. We are survivors, and I hope you find peace someday. If not, you have no idea what it is like. Our bodies are our own, and no one should ever do anything to jeopardize our bodies. When someone makes a selective decision to take advantage of you for their pleasure, it damages so much. You suddenly feel as though your dignity is stripped entirely away from you. You lay there helplessly, wanting to scream for help, but fear takes over. You can’t cry, and you can’t even scream. You cannot say anything. Your body goes into complete shock, and you freeze at that moment. Once it is over, you have no idea what to do, say, or think. You probably did not fathom ...

She was the girl who never got the full opportunity of loving someone with her whole heart. Before any relationship could blossom, guys always ran in fear of the unknown. They jumped into something too fast, fell too hard, and too deep, so they ran away. They ran her around this never-ending cycle, a rollercoaster of emotions, and she was growing tired. She was a fresh new pair of shoes. Guys always put her on and showed her off. Over time, she would get worn out, messy, and eventually thrown out and wholly taken for granted.  She never felt like a first-place prize. She was always silver, never gold. She came so close but always fell short. Every time someone let her down, she locked herself away to feel everything burning and breaking her heart. So much travesty for one young woman. So many tear-soaked pillowcases, worn-out tissues, and empty wine bottles. It was an endless cycle of heartbreak, of not feeling worthy enough of someone’s love.  Despite all of this hurt, hardsh...